Phrecia 2.0 SUCKED for me, more like I sucked at it

Hi. Before I start, I just wanna say that I'm not here to blame anybody or criticize some systemic failure regarding the game or the community in general. I blame myself. This isn't meant as a complaint, if it sounds like whining I apologize, that's not my intent. I don't usually reach out like this. I just wanted to get this out of my chest to only people who, at one point or another, shared a similar experience. It's ok if you have any criticism about it, I welcome it.

So, I've been playing this game since Dominus was the end game boss. My favorite thing to do was farming Merciless Ledge. I have 6k hours in this game approximately. I was just minding my own business, playing Phox's chieftain RF in SSF when I heard about Phrecia 2.0 is happening. I wanted to keep playing RF and still join the event, logical step felt like Phox's RF build for the event. So, in his video he showed this life stacking bog shaman. No janky interactions between obscure uniques. Just a good all rounder and a straightforward build. In his video he did warn that Foulborn Rathpith will be "VERY" expensive. I vividly remember his tone, it was all caps you could tell. And I thought to myself "Yeah if I stack my 40/40 trophies one could climb over a mountain, I think can handle VERY."

I couldn't handle "VERY"...

Although I raced in my youth, I'm not particularly fast, nor very creative when it comes to currency making strategies. Or, to be honest, willing to do a well paying strategy that I don't enjoy. I mean, that's literally a job. I already have multiple jobs, work over 10 hours every day. I don't need another one. But one thing I'm good at is grinding. I'll still be grinding when loot goblins moved on, I'll still be grinding with the same character when build hoppers are on their 6th build. That's the game. It's in the company's name. That mentality never failed me over a decade now.

Well, until this event.

Man, it's brutal. At first it was 30 divs, then it was 70, then 100.. and I kept being half way there only to wake up the next day to see it doubled over night. As 3.28 timeline was announced I decided it was time I gave up. The price was 220 divs and I just didnt have it in me to farm with a scuffed build that can't even beat maven yet for the third stone. It broke me. It wasn't because I couldn't get an item, really. It's just couple pixels, it's here today, forgotten in standard tomorrow. I've farmed many mirrors, gave away double corrupted magebloods, it's not about that. It's the fact that, this is one thing I'm best at, and I lost despite it. I guess it's a matter of how you define yourself as a person, maybe a matter of pride. This was my domain. This "You will not outwork me." mentality. Maybe I put too much meaning into it.

I realize there were dozens of other things I could've done yet I chose not to. I don't disagree. There are multiple "just do this" solutions that would've worked. I could've switched to a better currency making strat, or pivot to another build, or simply refuse bashing my head against a rock until either of us cracked and just stay away from FOMO markets. It's not about who's fault it is, it's not about what I could've done to fix the problem, it's about the experience of the ordeal.

I want to thank you if you're the one person who actually read all this, I don't know what you get out of but hey, I appreciate it!
Have you ever experienced something similar?
If so how did you get past it? More than that, how did it affected your way of thinking?
Like I said, I welcome any criticism, feedback or general reaction you may have. I hope this is the right place

I think for such a short event it is a bit unrealistic to expect to have a gg item but of course it's still possible. Sometimes it takes being humbled like this before you can really grow as a player. Hopefully the situation that happened changes your perspective on things for the better.

One of my most humbling experiences was having a mirror drop back when everyone played in short allocation and not being able to grab it in time. I was upset at first mostly because I didn't believe a mirror would really drop while I was in a random party with people... but I realized right away that having that mirror might have just made me quit the league early anyways so it possibly wasn't even that bad of a thing for me.

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newbutnot#7699 wrote:

One of my most humbling experiences was having a mirror drop back when everyone played in short allocation and not being able to grab it in time. I was upset at first mostly because I didn't believe a mirror would really drop while I was in a random party with people... but I realized right away that having that mirror might have just made me quit the league early anyways so it possibly wasn't even that bad of a thing for me.

Wow, that is crazy... True, though. Especially if you're not mentally prepared for high budget possibilities, where do you even go from there? You get everything you're supposed to be playing for lol. Do you ever think about that person who nicked your mirror?

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newbutnot#7699 wrote:

I think for such a short event it is a bit unrealistic to expect to have a gg item but of course it's still possible. Sometimes it takes being humbled like this before you can really grow as a player. Hopefully the situation that happened changes your perspective on things for the better.

Yes it was a humbling experience for me, for sure. It's a hard pill to swallow. I guess I was riding on the high of my smooth starts for the last several leagues. I felt like I was "at that level", you know. But those times I did my due diligence, this time I wasn't prepared at all. Looking back, it was a bit unrealistic when I consider the time I had available versus the goal. Maybe I should've picked something with more incremental upgrade steps.

Yeah I think about it sometimes but mostly not I have aged a bit from then and have learned that video games are just for fun anyways so don't let bad stuff that happens in them change your mood too much.

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newbutnot#7699 wrote:

Yeah I think about it sometimes but mostly not I have aged a bit from then and have learned that video games are just for fun anyways so don't let bad stuff that happens in them change your mood too much.

That's a very mature way of looking at things. Maybe time to time he also goes "Man, I don't know. I think I did that guy wrong..."

OP: you came at it with vigour, the economic situation didn't pan out.

I pursued mage in keepers and when i had 185 divs it was 205....
then i had 205 and it was 230 it made me feel sick chasing it.

I had like 285 it was 315 I strongly requested (read begged) a fried for
all the divs and c he had in a brown paper bag. I bought the damned thing
for a touch over 300. 315? 325? didnt matter at the time. its mine now.

a week later it was 245. precia2.0 didnt dive like that. but... if I had just
chilled.... got 400d. paid 245? owed my buddy nothing back?

its a similar chase, just. I didnt need to chase so hard. I "won" the chase
and threw away dozens of div

you did fine. it was short,.

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AgnosiousD#2205 wrote:

OP: you came at it with vigour, the economic situation didn't pan out.

I pursued mage in keepers and when i had 185 divs it was 205....
then i had 205 and it was 230 it made me feel sick chasing it.

I had like 285 it was 315 I strongly requested (read begged) a fried for
all the divs and c he had in a brown paper bag. I bought the damned thing
for a touch over 300. 315? 325? didnt matter at the time. its mine now.

a week later it was 245. precia2.0 didnt dive like that. but... if I had just
chilled.... got 400d. paid 245? owed my buddy nothing back?

its a similar chase, just. I didnt need to chase so hard. I "won" the chase
and threw away dozens of div

you did fine. it was short,.

I appreciate your kind words. Thank you.
It does almost feel like that caricature; the donkey with a stick strapped on it's back, at the tip of the stick a carrot dangling. Faster you chase faster it goes. I hope your next mageblood leaves better memories.