How is everyone doing today?

Hope you're all well,

Just thought I could post something, see how everyone is doing today/this week you know?

My day has been boring, but a good boring (one where nothing really happens so I get the entire day to myself). Later this week I am going to a convention, sort of like comic con. I ordered a PoE sweatshirt from Amazon so I'm going to wear it when I arrive at the convention.

I hope your day/week/etc. is good.

Thanks! Glad to hear you're doing alright.

Between bouts of PoE 1, I've been touching a LOT of grass. Had my yard surveyed so I can be sure I don't infringe on the neighbors' properties with some significant work I'll be doing. Spent a few hours driving back rampant nature before I ran out of filament for my weed trimmer. Ordered some pavers to lay out on the property line, and to base a shed on.

I think a couple of the feral cats we feed are sick; they've gone off their usual feed. One responded well to sardines (pungent food provides a better scent incentive to eat when they're congested, which appears to be the problem), but the other was diffident. Concerning. ='[.]'=

Heyo!

That's awesome, OP! Hope you've a good time at the con. :)

I'm doing good. Not unlike yourself, really; bit of a slow and a 'meh' day, but certainly not a bad one. You know what they say - "no news is good news." Well, a few hours ago I did drop another €1,000 on one particular stock - so maybe I'm having a bit of a stupid day.

Who know Vinland Saga? The film is set in Viking-era Europe. The story revolves around Thorfinn, a young warrior who is determined to avenge his father, but gradually confronts the true meaning of war, honor, and the desire for freedom. The film not only depicts fierce battles but also delves into the philosophy of life and the dream of "Vinland" - a peaceful promised land without violence. This is a work that perfectly combines action, history, and human depth.

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raymundmodesty#2874 wrote:

Who know Vinland Saga? The film is set in Viking-era Europe. The story revolves around Thorfinn, a young warrior who is determined to avenge his father, but gradually confronts the true meaning of war, honor, and the desire for freedom. The film not only depicts fierce battles but also delves into the philosophy of life and the dream of "Vinland" - a peaceful promised land without violence. This is a work that perfectly combines action, history, and human depth.

I watched the first season of the anime, should probably watch the second sometime, but it's been years since I saw the first season.

Pretty good here, still working out and playing a lot of pickleball. Someone was gonna throw away over $100 worth of protein (whey isolate) because it was a little expired but they gave it to me, so that was pretty cool.

Bought my cat a toy that he has been obsessed with for a month, so win.

Computer still completely freezing when I close an intensive full screen game. I've tried a ton of different Nvidia drivers and lowered setting with msi afterburner. Plays the game just fine, only freezes when I close the game, so that sucks, but oh well.

Excited to see what the next PoE 1 league has in store for us all.

How am I doing today?

Just spent the day suffering and crying, which is what I do on my birthday every year since high school, more or less. No special party for sweet 18 either, just tears.

I randomly opened the PoE website and read this thread, and I'm sitting here jealous, because at no point in life was I able to randomly throw €1,000 on stocks, let alone earn it.

I spent twelve, TWELVE years in a prison of my room, being afraid to leave it because of my abuser (but not abusive enough to be reported). I used PoE to try to cope with life until 2024 when my laptop died and I was not able to diagnose the issue myself, nor had anyone who could help me. I have no words to describe it. The moment when you long for outside, when you'd give everything to feel wind on your face. You open the window to catch at least a lil' touch of wind, but it's barely there, and what's more noticeable than the wind you were chasing, is the anti-fly net on the window that reminds you of prison. You try to force yourself to go out, but you can't, because you're too afraid to open the room's door, worrying that HE might be there. When you really, so, so much want to feel the wind, but it's not windy. The moment when you need to catch a breath of fresh air, because your family uses the stupid fireplace to save money, and the whole house stinks, so you open the window, and it's only low quality air outside, because all your neighbours smoke through chimneys.

All the moments that could have been spent on, y'know, living the life, instead spent on sitting in this room and playing PoE. And I don't even regret spending the amount that could literally give me PhD on the game (though I do regret spending THOUSANDS on this forum), because I know the alternative could be glaring at the ceiling or something alike. All the years my former class"mates" (I was bullied in school, too) spent partying, studying, meeting people, getting married, having children, changing jobs for the better, children, daycare, primary school, travel, I spent being afraid to leave my room. I had no-one to ask for help and even if I tried, there was a risk they'd tell my parents and not take me seriously.

And this year, I couldn't stand it anymore. I grabbed a suitcase and ran away. The controlling PoS, of course, had to know where I went. I told my mother beforehand that I'd go to someone who I was unsure whether would open the door, and that I certainly wouldn't be able to contact her until at least 7pm, because I had no working smartphone and no phone number. People nowadays use google maps and I had to do with a recorded route on an old phone. And memory. I got lost once in the dark. Finally I rang the bell. Nobody opened. Long story. The PoS reported me missing THREE hours after I left home, half of which was the travel to a city they knew I'd go, because I had no other way to get out of this awful place. There is no way to escape from this controlling PoS I am in hell. And no, being of female gender doesn't magically get you men willing to do anything for you at your feet. But it can give you some insults and fear for just existing. And it certainly doesn't give you a nice boyfriend who would play PoE with you.

It only got worse. The abusive PoS tried to get me imprisoned in a mental hospital with the help of his "friend" he wanted to... can we write "fuck" on this forum nowadays? I was convinced this social worker was oficially working on "my case", I trusted her, told her stuff about him and myself, and they used it in court to try to get me involuntarily hospitalised. My mother claims that women tried to convince the PoS that I was a dangerous schizophrenic. You can't make this shit up. I can't express how ridiculous this claim is, and I guess the psychiatrist that was sent to my case, couldn't either, because I got diagnosed with, who could have guessed, social anxiety. For having which I was basically punished since young age, but who cares.

My mother got on my side only after that woman became "the other woman". I lost trust in everyone. Who knows, maybe the PoS will even read this, because when I left, he launched my PC, got on my Discord, and added the fat algae eater of that wicked woman's daughter as my friend to let her pretend to be my "friend" and ask my real friend for my whereabouts. I had a kind of digital journal here, notes about him, my nickname(s), and now I'll never be sure what he's seen. Hell, I even had a list of passwords on my desk, because until that day nobody has ever breached my privacy like that in this house.

And this is not even half of the hell I had to endure. I hate my life. Someone clearly clicked "higher difficulty" when I was being born. I envy people who were just normal kids. I was "weird" since daycare, always the third wheel in a family who was also toxic, but hey, you're fine as long as you don't find out you're not.

Oh, and my glasses broke. I think my mother only realised how bad it was when I pointed at a pile of grey balls in the supermarket and asked whether those were kiwis or potatoes. She's been downplaying my vision issues for years and I couldn't get through her, because she's the narcissistic martyr type. I hate this family. They ruined me. And I'm too weak to get up by myself. I see no hope. And no, I'm not suicidal. I actually had a story with fake call about my "suicidal thoughts" this year, too. I just had enough of all this.

I wish I had at least PoE. I am so jealous you all can play it. I've been playing since Anarchy, but only for a few months it worked decently. I cherish that time. I think it was the best time of my imprisoned life. I was so happy. I even had an OP build for once, the forbidden Zerphi flask + Poet's Pens VD combo. It was so fun.